Of first term, second year

Assalamualaikum and hello XD

[I am updating this dusty blog in the midst of week 8 (well not actually because it’s THE SATURDAY of week 8, so...)

Anyways! I didn’t do anything that ‘academically’ progressive during my summer break except going over and over ruminating my mental breakdowns lol.]

sunny means cold temperature with chilly wind

It was supposed to be written in that favor heh.  I kinda suppressed (what a PSYCH word) my intention to post; to even continue my plan to update my blog for at least a post a month. I've listed out what to write and even took pictures to put on this blog - but no.

took this picture because of the neon lights 

Honestly, I didn't do a thing outside my academic favours during this term.  I would like to say I am proud of myself attending my morning lectures (the 9am ones) but I skipped one in week 9 because I was so tired that day. It was during THAT week (if you guys can get it). I would say this term kinda started well for me... but I was feeling the building tensions during the last two weeks.

I had a mental breakdown - last week (my week 10). I didn't go out for almost 2 days and only went to watch Tombiruo in the lecture hall with my society. I had my phone falls into the toilet bowl - with my smiling face as the wallpaper, flashing inside the bowl. And had no connection with anyone except through my iPad, had my phone dried up in a bag of instant rice. Alhamdulillah, it's alright for the moment (for now).

the helpful bag of rice

I even bought a smartphone as a backup plan (I used my savings T^T) So, I think my upcoming allowance will have an extra saving plan instead heh... I think weather does have an impact on your emotions as well. Imagine waking up at 6am just to find out the sun is only out at 8am, and 4pm - the sun is already out of the picture. Maybe that's why the term 'winter blues' exists in the first place heh.

But the positive side of those things, I re-discovered Coventry again lol. I should be posting few pictures on my Instagram but I didn't get any feelings to post them in my 'social' Insta account. //I have two Insta accs lol//

I am very nervous about my upcoming term because there's project group, with presentations too. But I am nervous for my upcoming winter trip because we are planning to do backpacking, having overnight on the bus - I just want to skip this cold, harsh winter.

Maybe I should try to have that push - to do everything at that moment and not letting the feelings fade away (?). I tried to start a diary entry and a journal but I guess those won't work anymore with me lol. I had this kind of mindset, deciding things that aren't permanent shouldn't be written in the book. I felt the process is kinda taking my time that I should use for 'other' things (such as crying over my reports, my essay deadlines, my weakness over cold weather)  - hence, the result: I ended having nothing on my 'diary' or 'journal'.

I really need to change myself and my mindsets.

Seriously.

Keep an eye on my post counts.

JK

Okay annyeong ciao goodbye!