Goodbye July

Assalamualaikum & hello xD

going to enjoy sky view as always

Hari ni baru aku nekad nak menaip satu post hehe sebenarnya dah boleh update untuk June tapi entah kenapa aku takde feel nak taip blogger.com pun hehe. Kalau ikut Dreamdays app, dah 49 hari (omo hari berkabung korea) aku kat Malaysia dan lagi 59 hari nak balik UK. Sebenarnya dah lebih sebulan aku kat rumah hoho. Dah selamat beraidil fitri and dah habis pun rayanya.. tahun ni aku tak pergi beraya mana pun hahahah open house pun tak jejak kaki rasanya. Geng pun pakat-pakat balik universiti memasing sebab cuti raya sikit pastu depa nak exam heh

fuh i'm still driving straight in chanyeol's lane

Pastu aku pun balik mengadap schedule baru kat rumah ni hahah sebab aku je yang free, so setiap hari aku lipat baju, tengok tv, scroll twitter & insta, watch youtube and Vlive je. Sometimes, vacuuming, iron baju parents or bersihkan rumah dusun. Bintik merah dengan kulit kering tu jangan sebut la heh... dah berapa pump lotion aku tekan untuk apply hahahah

So unproductive untuk seorang pelajar universiti hahahah kawan-kawan aku berderet dah aktiviti memasing hihi ada yang intern, ada yang join volunteering, ada yang plan backpacking and travelling with family. Aku? Cuma spend time with my little family je la. Tokwan pun dah tak berapa nak sihat, risau gak la aku sebab dulu Tokwan boleh la berjalan-jalan dalam rumah tu.. sekarang asyik terbaring je sebab tak larat. Tok aku pulak dah pakai tongkat sebab terjatuh hari tu pastu doktor cakap kecederaan tulang tu cam lambat nak pulih or something tak pulih dah (I don't really know about this).

To be honest, aku rasa cabaran aku balik rumah kali ni, cabaran emosi. Bayangkan, aku balik rumah dengan taktahu apa-apa langsung perkembangan pasal family and terus kena cope dengan situasi. Every week, KPJ tu tempat wajib, even tak stay lama or ada wifi sekalipun.

Aku sebenarnya tak berapa suka ke hospital sebab tempat tu buat aku sedih.. kadang-kadang macam gamble je, kau menang then kau sihat lepas keluar hospital. kau kalah then kau .... (hmmm nampak tak perangai aku cemana..) Walaupun aku tahu kesihatan and penyembuhan tu pun rezeki dari Allah, tapi mostly aku mintak Allah tamatkan penderitaan orang-orang yang aku lawat tu..either sembuh atau ambik je terus... ish kurang sabar betul la aku ni hahahah aku rasa bebanan emosi tu cam senyap-senyap berkumpul tapi aku taktahu bila nak lenyap bebanan tu.

I cried few days before, crying over 'petty things' in which I think maybe in future, I will address them as petty. One of the reasons (I should say this is the major reason but no, I wouldn't) was about my attempt to know the reasons but actually, it's a request for behaviour which I guess I won't get. It's not about asking for an outcast, it's just about reconsideration - but I guess I shouldn't ask in the first place. But yeah, it made me know where was my position and where do I stand for next time. I should just drop the mic and let them be. That problem runs in the family, hence I should have seen it coming though heh

CHOP CHOP

There were so many wishlists yang aku dah plan untuk aku buat cuti summer ni.. Examplenya:

- nak sambung update blog for each month (2 months delay kot!!)
- sambung baca novel yang masih berbalut
- sambung review album korea (hehe)
- belajar Writing English bagi mantap
- baca Psychology cases ke, notes ke
- ronda Penang/Kedah/Krabi

enjoying summer vibe like baekhyun

I would say the last one I can put a tick to Kedah ahahaha that's the only place I've been going few times in these 49 days. Adik aku pulak dok memanggil aku turun KL teman dia keluar jenjalan sana, UGH HELLO WHERE'S MONEY THOUGH. Adik aku dapat asasi UIA untuk dentistry hehe selamat bergigian, sis! I got this empty feeling bila adik dah gi masuk uni heheh takde kawan aku yang mudah terhibur kat rumah hahahah

Things about getting home was to share wifi with 4 people pastu kau dah terbiasa dengan high speed internet - pure patience is needed hahahahah mama pulak cakap, "you can sit still without your parents around but not internet?" Yes, aku memang internet addict but not to extent yang mengamuk kalau internet takdak tu. Just tak cakap banyak sebab aku tahu semua benda from internet heheh so aku cam rasa takleh connect dengan orang sebab most of the times, we used Whatsapps, Instagram, Twitter pastu tetiba nak suruh guna basic phone, umm yeah okay?

Hidup macam mana sekalipun aku still kena teruskan perjalanan hah oh yeah result exam dah keluar tapi aku tak sure mana overall marks aku hmmm but for each paper tu alhamdulillah lepas hihi so second year kena start pulun habis hehe.. aku apply untuk berhenti kerja kat Arts Centre tu tapi tak sure la dah lulus ke belum sebabnya aku still dapat email from FrontHouse hahahah

By the way, EXO dah buat comeback - all hail THE WAR! To be honest, aku takde high expectation pun tapi EXO-Ls macam biasa la kan streaming, voting & buying album secara besar-besaran tu hahaha selling ratio for each album was 1 album/second. (Gigih nak mampus hahahah dan aku masih tak beli album EXO. The only KPOP thing yang aku beli (yang official) is Mondoongie a.k.a Monsta X's official lightstick, which is tak sampai lagi sebab dua kali tersekat di Kastam heh)

The title track is KOKOBOP - sumpah pelik tapi apa je yang tak pelik from EXO ni hahahah kalau masing-masing ada superpower hahahah my fav songs from the album are Forever, Going Crazy & Walk on Memories - ni memang on loop everytime aku dengar album tu (well aside Kokobop tu) and Chanyeol just jegil mata on national TV I'M SO DONE LIKE CHILL BRO I AM WATCHING DON'T WORRY I'M WATCHING YOU AND NOT SWERVING LANES

Yang sedihnya tu, Red Velvet pun buat comeback pastu Red Flavor is my fav but why SM want their artists to compete against each other I'M DIVIDED I'M SAD

beep beep sehun's going through

STREAM NEWTON, RED FLAVOR AND KOKOBOP EVERYONE!!!

brb finding more words to type

why there's no yixing though

okay annyeong ciao goodbye