Devastated

Assalamualaikum and hello :)

I don't know what to say and what to do, I even cried today. I never wanted the history to repeat itself, I don't want to feel the same pain again - no never. Please don't take my sunshine away, please don't take away my twelve sunflowers, please. It's already perfect, it must be twelve, there's no eleven sunflowers in my garden, and I would never replace each and every one of it for new ones.

Wu Yifan, I believe in you. No matter how hard it will be, I always will support you. All of us will do - we believe in you, so stand up and speak for your rights.

"Famous Last Words"
Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...
And I know
There's nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...
So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
'Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say
I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Hey readers, I'm sorry for making you guys reading this angst post but it's really stirred in me and I couldn't find any comfort except for posting. It's really hurt to see something or someone that you dearly love to topple and break - you might think or feel that I'm being so emotional to some issues which are not even associated with me, but seriously I couldn't help it. Just imagine how would it be if your favourite soccer teams are having issues and they might disband or kick out a member that is very essential - the strength pillar of the team, then you'll know how I feel.

I really wanted to wake up from this nightmare.

okay annyeong ciao goodbye.